Joe Biden: Thank You For Being A Real Person

Out of all four candidates Joe Biden is the only one who seems like he would be really happy if someone gave him the green light to start telling the American people the truth.  At one point in the past year my idealistic self thought that a politician could tell the whole truth and nothing but the truth and that would set us free. I have come to learn that things are far more complex than that. I realize now from all the feedback I get about politics, especially with my own friends and family, that people do not notice how influenced they are by television and Main Stream Media. They are not ready to wake up. They do not know that they need to question everything, every single thing, and the source of that news. We need to stop categorizing and stereotyping people into secs. There is no purpose served by discounting and entire group of people. Each person should be judged on their individual merits and opinions. 

It was impressive that Martha Raddatz was able to ask for serious answers on subjects such as Iran and challenge the candidates to be specific about their policies. 
Here is just the closing portion of the topic of Iran:

RYAN: A nuclear-armed Iran which triggers a nuclear arms race in the Middle East. This is the world's largest sponsor of -- of terrorism. They've dedicated themselves...
(CROSSTALK)
RYAN: ... to wiping an entire country off the map. They call us the Great Satan. And if they get nuclear weapons, other people in the neighborhood will pursue their nuclear weapons, as well.
RADDATZ: Vice President Biden?
RYAN: We can't live with that.
BIDEN: War should always be the absolute last resort. That's why these crippling sanctions, which Bibi Netanyahu says we should continue, which -- if I'm not mistaken -- Governor Romney says we -- we should continue. I may be mistaken. He changes his mind so often, I could be wrong.
But the fact of the matter is, he says they're working. And the fact is that they are being crippled by them. And we've made it clear, big nations can't bluff. This president doesn't bluff.

I've read that over a 100 thousand children will die from the sanctions we have put on Iran. Their money is worth next to nothing. When certain foods, such as Chicken, are brought in those things are so scarce it nearly causes riots. Or does. It is hard to know exactly because our media is downplaying the severity of how we treat Iran. If they call us the great Satan it is because we bombed the shit out of the 2 closest countries to them, Afghanistan and Iraq. They know better than we do what beautiful places those were before we blew them up in the name of an act of terrorism that had nothing to do with those people. That's like saying we should have bombed Washington D.C. because Timothy McVeigh succeeding in doing what he planned. There is no correlation between the peoples of the world and their powerful governments.

We need to start treating insanity and extreme violent viewpoints as just that, extreme. We don't because we have been brainwashed in American to fear our neighbors. In America we believe everyone has the potential to really hurt you. I deem that they do not. I do believe that most violent rhetoric and actions are in reaction to a violent childhood or one or more traumatic experiences. We can't get rid of those ideologies with more violence. We can only progress forward if we accept that all the peoples of the world are the working class, and we all want fairness and freedom. When those freedoms are threatened it becomes easier to turn otherwise vibrant smart people into terrorists. But even still there are those among us that when faced with extreme tragedy fight harder for peace instead of react violently.

I wasn't expecting a lot of the topics they discussed to be covered well. Biden delivered, as far as intelligent answers and being genuine.
He also said the one thing people were waiting to hear from Obama all last Wednesday.

BIDEN: With all due respect, that's a bunch of malarkey.
RADDATZ: And why is that so?
BIDEN: Because not a single thing he said is accurate. First of all...
RADDATZ: Be specific.
BIDEN: I will be very specific.

Everyone wishes more politicians would call out the lies and hyperbole we are being fed. As someone who is very passionate. It is nice to see another passionate person actually involved in politics. Many are being critical now of Biden's laughter and body language which to me were the most appealing. I am one to always analyze other peoples body language, even just in casual situations. In a Presidential debate, you can bet I consider it a factor. We shouldn't be judging leaders of the world based on body language or their personalities but the policies they are going to, or have enacted.

The Radical Right (which has completely taken over the Republican Party) already started forming their narrative about Biden's personality and body language just minutes into the debate, especially once it was obvious Biden was doing well. But I don't think anyone who was actually watching that debate felt that Paul Ryan was winning at any point, unless you already believe those lies. He came off as smug and lacking answers. He repeated all the GOP talking points perfectly. Without as much the outright lying Romney took part in, it is evident that the GOP platform does nothing to help any of the lower classes. There was a lot of rhetoric from Ryan about how they care about the middle class and how they will be tough on foreign policy and pass lots of cuts to the bloated government. But haven't we all heard that before? There were no real solutions presented. I am one to not wholeheartedly believe in the Democratic Platform for many reasons. At the very least it moves towards the future we want instead of away from it. 

It still surprises me that no one ever mentions the poor or all the people actually homeless or starving in America. The big 2 parties never talk about it. The big 6 that own Main Stream Media never talk about it. That does not make those American's pain any less real. You can pretend all you like that this is the greatest country on earth but we certainly have killed a lot of people in war and let a lot of our own suffer and starve without medical coverage for long enough. I hope someday that people like me will fight hard enough that this will be the greatest country the world has ever seen, but I won't hold my breathe. If we truly were the keepers of peace and harmony people would strive to be like us, instead of fear us.

People who already love Paul Ryan think he gave an outstanding performance. He was just as poised, polished, and ripped as they want him to be. He had the audacity to try and rattle the vice president with his reference to a horrific car accident to make the point that Mitt Romney helped that family. Biden was not rattled and spoke with sincerity about his experience of losing his wife and infant daughter in a car accident in his early days of the Senate. he often speaks of that tragedy as having helped him show people that you can survive those hardest things in life and thrive.

And for those of you that want to know why I STILL, after all my research, don't believe both parties are "exactly the same", There is this:

BIDEN: ...My friend recently in a speech in Washington said "30 percent of the American people are takers." These people are my mom and dad -- the people I grew up with, my neighbors. They pay more effective tax than Governor Romney pays in his federal income tax. They are elderly people who in fact are living off of Social Security. They are veterans and people fighting in Afghanistan right now who are, quote, "not paying any tax."

I've had it up to here with this notion that 47 percent -- it's about time they take some responsibility here. And instead of signing pledges to Grover Norquist not to ask the wealthiest among us to contribute to bring back the middle class, they should be signing a pledge saying to the middle class we're going to level the playing field; we're going to give you a fair shot again; we are going to not repeat the mistakes we made in the past by having a different set of rules for Wall Street and Main Street, making sure that we continue to hemorrhage these tax cuts for the super wealthy.

BIDEN: They're pushing the continuation of a tax cut that will give an additional $500 billion in tax cuts to 120,000 families. And they're holding hostage the middle class tax cut because they say we won't pass -- we won't continue the middle class tax cut unless you give the tax cut for the super wealthy.

It's about time they take some responsibility.

If Willard wins this election with a Republican majority in congress things will get worse. He has made it obvious that he intends to cut programs for the poor and tax cuts that help the middle class, such as the child tax credit, and the mortgage tax credit. While he is raising our taxes he will be cutting the tax rates for the .01%. He also will raise military spending and claims the Obama Administration is weak in regards to Iran, even though we are killing civilians and children all over the middle east already. He also wants to reverse the rights of women, to impose his religious beliefs on others. All of these things are public common knowledge. They are the platform of the current Republican Party, despite that everything he said last Wednesday was to the contrary. All politicians may have to lie but not all lies are cut from the same cloth. Just like not all people are cut from the same cloth. It serves no purpose to throw up our hands and stalk away chanting the "all the same" mantra. We will make no progress as long as we believe we are powerless.

We will not get to the change we want through the election of a President. To believe that is naive at best. We can take baby steps to a better future without having the entirety of human civilization dismantled as the libertarians and anarchist believe is necessary. We all agree that we need to minimize human suffering.

"We want people to be able to turn to their children and say, it's going to be ok." - Props Vice President Biden.

We've Been Had: Reflections On the First Presidential Debate

Distrust in the laws and order we have established is their greatest weapon.

If those in power can get you to believe that the government is irreparably broken then there seems to be a lot less reason to fight. If there really was no way that the system could right itself if people participated then why do the men of power spend so much time and money convincing us that voting is a waste of time. People who believe in the system vote. People who would fight the system are disenfranchised. They don't know where to direct their energy. They know there is someone to blame. If you're a racist Obama is a perfect villain. If you're an atheist intellectual, or a blue collar worker, than Willard is your perfect villain. Everybody's got somebody to hate. Which is what Americans love best, why else would we watch reality TV? But Americans for the most part don't have someone representing their actual best interests in our congress. 

Obama historically may turn out to be the greatest President we've ever had. The world is in turmoil. I feel as though if anyone else were President right now we would already be at war with Iran. It is the next step. They are one of the only countries left not connected to the central banks. He looks old, he looks tired. And I think the last thing on his mind is dealing with Willard on TV. Willard is completely incapable of handling the Presidency of the United States of America and its impact on the global economy right now. He is socially inept in a lot of ways. Obama was calm because Mitt Romney's smirk and condescension was obvious Wednesday night. Obama knows he is set up to win and that the poll numbers are in his favor. Unless the GOPs voter suppression tactics and electronic polling hacking is in full effect there is no way Willard will have the support he needs to win. But I still think those are both just tactics to prove to people how little their vote matters.

The more time goes on, the more I really think Obama did not know what he was accepting when he said he would run for President. First of all, we all act like we knew the world was going to end and the economy was going to crash back in 2008 except that hindsight is 20/20 and no one knew a damn thing or was even willing to admit it was even happening until it was well underway. There are STILL people diminishing the effects of what happened and that they are still going on. Secondly he was asked to run against Hillary Clinton, amongst other qualified Democrats who had been around longer to be, the first black candidate to win the nomination of a major party. Why would he think that he could win? We all take for granted now how much of a margin Obama won by and how much support he garnered in 2008. Either the powers that picked him to run never thought he could win or they set him up to win so that he could take the fall.

In 2007 when he won the nomination I don't think he could have foreseen the path that lead us to today. When he accepted that nomination the economy had just begun to unhinge, the intellectual elites in this country were in severe denial about the nature of this economic and social collapse. Some of them still deny the reality of what happened and what is happening, I'm sure they are well compensated. I believe we all thought the problems that were created during the Bush administration would be a lot simpler to fix. We all wanted an easy answer. We all wanted a hero. And that fell on the shoulders of Barack Obama. 

The reason it appears as though Willard won the debate was that Obama has lost the passion that we loved him for. The reason I don't believe Obama could have known the reality of the world when he accepted the idea of being President is his overzealous optimism during the 2008 campaign. Willard thinks he will be inheriting power and a final confirmation of his personal superiority over others when he wins. Willard is enough of an ego maniac that he thinks he will win. And even if he loses he might say he meant to do it. His enthusiasm for this battle is evident. He is the product of bully culture, he lives for the fight. Obama's uncertainty and stress level is evident. Mitt Romney thinks he's going to win the biggest popularity contest in history.

Obama has never seemed to live for the fight. Throughout his campaigns, his debates, and his career as a politician he is often said to be to soft. I hear many say they want him to pull no punches and really attack. Well if it wasn't in his nature by now, he probably won't.  This brings me to Obama's War Presidency. Why do we still have troops in Afghanistan? Well, it's an 11 year war and the military industrial complex already had a set plan for withdrawal so that might have something to do with it. What about the drone killings in Pakistan? Why would someone who was in any way anti-war condone that? This is my own theory but here goes. 

I think that we are on the verge of World War 3 and that no one in America even knows what is going on. But that doesn't seem different from any other period of history. Before we had computers there was only T.V. and before that only Newspaper and Radio. It's a lot easier to quell the flow of information and to incite people to war and violence when you are controlling the propaganda they take in on a daily basis. Right now there is a movement away from that, but with all of our technology there are 100s of apps and websites to get your news. The people who want to control the world were one step ahead of us. Many people only turn to their favorite news source so everything they hear is through a filter that is tailored to their own ideology. The world is over saturated with news that they want us to believe is important precisely to distract us from anything else that might be taking place. 

I believe Obama is allowing the drone killings to escalate because he is staving off entering the war that Benjamin Netanyahu is trying to start with Iran. President Obama does have the largest military arsenal the world has ever seen at his disposal and I believe there are men in this world that he wants to be well aware of our drone killing capabilities. They are far more menacing than nuclear weapons, we can use them without any repercussions to our own troops or our own health in the future. I believe if John McCain, or Mitt Romney were President we would already be at war with Iran. During the 2011 GOP Primary debates, every single one of the 9 candidates who they let on T.V., with the exception of Ron Paul, said that they support war with Iran. 

Obama may have signed the NDAA but I don't believe he has as much control as everyone gives him credit for, if he didn't sign, thousands of military families would not have gotten paid for a couple of weeks, and the congress had a two thirds majority so he had no veto power in reality, which everyone forgets. He put out a statement saying he doesn't support Indefinite Detention and his administration won't use it, although we should all already know that Bradley Manning has been detained for over 865 days now. What does that mean? That one single man can not control all of the corrupt branches of the government right now, up to the including his own Administration and he's not perfect. If he was going to win this war for change he wanted, he was always going to need help and support and quite frankly he doesn't have it.

I think at the moment he's doing a damn good job at whatever show he is putting on that is keeping the world from (more) war. Europe, the Middle East, and Asia are seeing protests of a size we haven't seen in over 100 years, if ever. And not a single news organization in America says a damn word about it. Either you expect Obama to fix this, or you blame him for it. But you certainly don't think that your unwillingness to talk about this problem with your friends and family has anything to do with it. 

The culture of war and bullying have created the paranoia and fear of the government that people are experiencing. We need to ignore that fear and start talking about how we feel and what is really happening to us instead of niceties. We have to fight the urge to just tune out and not participate in the system because it is easier. It's such an easy narrative to adapt, that this is just the way the world is and there is no way we can help. In that case why would you even try. I can counter this. 

I believe firmly that you can make a huge difference if you try. The little things you do make a huge impact and you need to think about them. Where do you bank? Do you pay interest on debt? Where do you shop? What do you buy? What companies do you support and why? How much garbage do you create? Do you recycle? Do you make sure when you get new things that the old undamaged ones go to someone who need them, or do you put them at the curb because it's easier? You need to stop pretending that the things you do don't have an impact on the entire world. We need to wake up, and we need to take back control of our government because in reality government is the structure of society. You think you can live without government and the help of others? Let me know how that goes the first week you're out of power, and there is no more gas to get anywhere, and there is no water being piped to your house. What would you do? You have no idea because it's so horrible you've never even thought of it. You are taking your privileges for granted.

The reason they don't want you to care about voting and the reason they want you to believe that every politician is cut from the exact same clothe is because the American government was the first government in the world to stand up to the powers of privilege and they tried damn hard 300 years ago to make sure that corporations and moneyed interests never took control of our government. If you remove the corruption from the system, it can work. For all the talk Tea Partiers do about the sanctity of the constitution, they believe the corruptions lies in the system of government instead of where the people write the checks. 

You want to find the corruption? Turn to the wealthiest people in the world and the bank transactions and debt they control. All the arguing about who won the debate is to make sure that we never turn our attention away from politicians and focus on the real sources of power in this country and the world. 

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Occupy the Debates

No one wants to watch the debates. But we all are. It's almost unavoidable. Every website suggests watching it. Xbox live is streaming along with ustream, begging you to watch as soon as you log on. But really nothing worth hearing or that we haven't heard before is going to be said. We all know it and most of us have changed the channel already.

http://www.democracynow.org/   is streaming their version of the debates. Having Jill Stein and Rocky Anderson answer the same questions as the President and Mitt Romney. The primary difference is that the 3rd party candidates don't have to worry as much about what they are going to say. Because frankly not as many people have them under a microscope. They have real ideas about things we could be doing to move things forward and help the lower classes.

Outside the university of Denver there is an Occupy Wall Street protest taking place. You would never know from the lack of background noise and blandness going on in the giant hall on TV with it's T.V. lights, make-up crews, stuffy suits, podiums, and microphones that there is a massive protest going outside with chanting and music. Now they are on the move though marching about Denver. Blasting Rage Against the Machine and chanting. 

 Earlier in the day University of Denver students were having keggers and getting black out drunk in honor of the state of politics in the United States. 

I'm pretty sure everyone listening to Mitt Romney and Barack Obama feels the same nausea. No one likes being pandered to. Even the most apolitical people are aware of the heightened political tension in the air. They talk about not voting, they make statuses constantly about how little they care. But the truth is, even the least political person right now is worried and uncertain about what the future of the country is, because the jig is up.

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What have we learned in a year of Occupy Wall Street? When Swiffer has 979k likes on Facebook you know people are brainwashed by branding

Yesterday was a day that both started off and ended with brutal arrests. But it's the arrests during the day that proved to be most telling because often they were of people not intending to get arrested. There were those who linked arms or sat in the street in the morning, or refused to leave Zuccotti in the evening, who knew they were risking violent arrest by the NYPD. But many of the journalists and passers by who were arrested during the day paint the picture of why so many people stay away from the Occupy protests in person. Even observers have a way of being manhandled by the NYPD if they get too close. 


What have we learned in a year of Occupy Wall Street?

We have learned the through brute force you can intimidate people into staying home, especially mass showings of brute force over time.

We have learned that we live in a police state.

We have learned that since 9/11 there has been a severe militarization of police under the guise of our fear of terrorism. 

You are 8 times more likely to be killed by a police officer than by a terrorist. 

I have noticed all the coverage saying "whatever happened to Occupy?" never seems to find the connection between the squelching of the protests and the unwarranted direct acts of violence towards those who have been trying to protest. 

Sometime during the the George W. Bush administration American's were taught to fear. Over time we have learned not to speak out against the federal government or in this case the powerful people of money who control the government. We expect some shady character coming to question us about our revolution. During the years immediately following 9/11 this was common place. We were traumatized by the attack on our country. And then once again by the force used to silence dissent over the war.The Patriot Act instated, our civil liberties erroded all to to "protect us."

We need to start questioning why something so catastrophic was allowed to happen when we live in the country with the best military surveillance and the most monetary resources available to combat attacks. There are so many people arguing about what really happened and accusing one another of having the Wrong conspiracy theory. There are not enough people accepting that we all know the story we were spoon fed by the 9/11 Commission is watered down and untrue. We have been programmed to believe some things will just never have answers, for instance the conspiracy to assassinate J.F.K. These major catastrophic events lead us to the major ways we respond as a society. Hurricane Katrina made many Americans feel that their government is the problem and that no one is coming to save them. All of these things attribute to our every man for himself philosophy culminating in American society. 

We have an entire economy based around competition. Competition between people working for a similar goal has been a way to fuel progress. But there is no fair competition anymore. People at any level above poor lack a genuine personality. We no longer compete for the best solutions to our hardest struggles like solar energy. Instead we let the competitor with the most money and well established business win hands down through oil subsidies. 

The Occupy camps may be dismantled and people may have gone home to their families. But the Occupy movement lives on in everyone that saw that change is not impossible. We may not want to face the NYPD and our own personal physical arrest. But it's going to take all of us to make change happen. You have to find a way to contribute a small part. Even if it's just talking to a handful of people you know, or writing a letter, or taking a personal stand for what you believe in at your job, or in your home, it will make a difference. If we live to see the future we want instead of the future we're headed for we are all going to have to participate in the change.



This article is a perfect articulation of the police brutality seen yesterday at the protests. 
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Occupy Wall Street Celebrates A Successful Year and Talks About New Goals ( Live Updates )

Good Morning Wall Street

9:45AM
Even with the massive amount of NYPD checkpoints and the scare tactics used to deter turn out, there are thousands marching on the financial district this morning. For those who watched the movement struggle many times in the last year. It's good to see that some of the Occupiers still have hope and enthusiasm that this can make a difference. 

OWS has just taken an intersection. Arrests probably imminent. 

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As we approach the 10 o'clock hour Occupy Wall Street is planning to converge on a planned location. As the time gets closer some Occupiers run to evade being bothered by police. As the Occupiers enter the first every meeting place of the movement it seems that the NYPD is trying to limit access and deter the protesters. The shear numbers mean that the NYPD is only trying to handle actual provocateurs at the moment. It seems as long as you comply with the "keep it moving" rule you can avoid arrest. The enthusiasm today is a refreshing change. This is one of the first livestreams I have watched that doesn't seem in some way anticlimactic. 

10:00AM
The livestreamers and protestors comment on how many people text them and tweet them wanting to know how many people are at the marches. They have no way of guessing especially with all the different routes that usually divert protesters around traffic and police how many people are around them. They don't want to take a space and risk massive arrests by the NYPD circling around the protesters. The protesters are ,marching on Nassau Street heading towards Broadway to try and take the intersection. But the white shirts and the vans are always imminent nearby. There is a delicate give and take between those who want to provoke police and those who just want to avoid arrest. 

10:10AM
The Occupiers are receiving a megaphone order that if they do not keep moving along they face imminent arrest. If they leave the sidewalk voluntarily they will avoid arrest for disorderly conduct. They are being kettled into the street as if that will save them from arrest. They have dismantled the march once again as I have seen in the past. The NYPD uses its divide and conquer technique to separate the Occupiers and confuse them. Hopefully there will be enough of them that they can continue strong throughout the day. 

Live viewers between the most popular livestreams has been hovering around 2,500 people.  The total count of viewers is approaching 20,000. The numbers are climbing steadily so there is no exact count at the moment. 

10:26AM
There are reports that there have been about 50 arrests today. More have happened since though. It is hard for those on the ground at the protests to know what is really happening around them. The police try and cause as much divide and confusion as possible. The Occupiers discuss the fear and you can see the fear tactics used by the NYPD that are intended to deter average people from attending protests. Multiple journalists have been arrested. We need more pirate media. We need a media revolution in the homes of average Americans. When we turn off our TVs and rely on live coverage of events, bloggers, and social networking. Only then will we have the truth in media we are looking for. The livestreamers try to stay separated so those of us watching at home can see more of what's happening. It is much appreciated guys. 

11:18AM
The protesters are on the move again, this time to Battery Park. I have noticed that there are so many people on the street in NYC usually that sometimes it is hard to make out who is a protester and who is not. I find the red shirts of the Chicago Teachers Union make the crowds more unified and easily identifiable to the photographers. This is the most organized and successful I have seen the Occupiers. It has been a learning year. But there are probably still better ways still we will find to organize massive amounts of people in unity. 

11:28AM
More and more protesters are filing into Battery Park. It seems the groups have stayed together to reconvene as one large group, probably much to the disappointment of the police and their divisive kettling techniques. 

11:56AM 
National Lawyers Guild is confirming 104 arrests so far today. 

1:08Pm 
A large group has now gathered at Zuccotti Park.

1:30PM
At least 7 more arrests made of protesters surrounded by police and swept into a fan. The crowd still grows in numbers as this beautiful day continues. It seems as if the arrests are public displays of force to intimidate those who might not want to face arrest without cause. It seems as though most of the protesters find the benefits of showing solidarity far out way the risks. They have faith in the NLG and know who to call. The twitter feed and facebook have been alive all day with photos, videos, and blogs of the Anniversary of Occupy Wall Street. The camp that brought hope to so many is gone but not forgotten.

1:59PM
World Financial Center is reportedly shut down. A march was supposed to take place leaving from Zuccotti Communication is hard with so many protesters and so many police checkpoints. One stream seems as though everyone has stopped marching. On the other side of the group a march has started to leave Zuccotti. It's impossible to know how many protesters there are with so many smaller factions traveling around the city. 

2:08PM 
The groups are trying to figure out if their arrestable or not. There are 1000  in Zuccotti park but they aren't letting more people in and out easily. 

2:18PM
Protesters willing to get arrested are staging a protest at Goldman Sachs. Resisting police warning to get up.  

2:27PM
One of the independent journalist livestreamers was violently arrested by the NYPD. Deliberate scare tactics are being used by the NYPD to intimidate the many protesters who remain. All arrests being photographed and streamed live. The blatant use of force is obvious and intentional. They disregard that none of these charges will stick or be prosecuted because the goal is intimidation and control, and officers face no repercussions for that kind of behavior unless permanent irrefutable damage is done, and then usually a slap on the wrist compared to the penalty an average citizen would face.

The brutality always backfires on the police because instead of intimidated people are passionate about what they have just seen.

Some of the people being singled out and pulled out of the crowd are not actually being arrested.

3:16PM
As the activities of the day continue there is still a ton of enthusiasm. Many protesters repeat the same story. They all hear from their family and friends, isn't Occupy over? Didn't it die last winter? What do you think. Did the movement die or has it only just begun?

I enjoy that the Code Pink girls are wearing wigs that are the same color as my hair. I think I would fit in well with the Code Pink girls.  

 3:43PM 
Clear the sidewalk for pedestrians? huh? Or face arrest. Crowd chants, "we are pedestrians". Not allowing marching on the sidewalk or in the streets. White shirts still using megaphone to announce need for pedestrian sidewalk. At a crowd of walking pedestrians. 

The Lunacy Continues as over a thousand people still protest in NYC. The NYPD humiliates themselves yet again with scare tactics and demands that can not reasonably be met. Making arrests without cause while the shear number of protesters is still controlling the flow of the people. 

I am glad I am doing this today for me. Because I have sat here and watched protests so many times before. And I always forget the details. Today has been such an eventful day but repressed by the police and the media. That is why social media is so necessary. These people on twitter and at the march, and livestreaming today deserve an audience for their hard work in doing what most of us are afraid to do.  Thousands have risked being arrested for no cause at all. The crowd now is swelling out of the NYPDs control. You can feel the excitement. The Occupiers finally got the perfect marching weather. 

Reports over an hour ago of 150 arrests. 4:00PM
The men in White shirts still shout at the crowd that they are blocking pedestrian traffic. 

They are threatening a silent marching crowd with disorderly conduct arrest for being on the sidewalk. Often times when in a crosswalk with a walk sign protesters have been grabbed. 

3000 people still watching live on just the 3 livestreams I have open, and there are many others.  With over 57,000 homes having tuned in today to see the protests streamed live. 

The NYPD are attempting yet again to divide and kettle the crowd.

 5:15PM 
I think that in a lot of ways, fear is winning. We haven't protested even when we've seen injustice. We stay home out of responsibility and fear. Many people warned me of what could happen if I went. That shows that money is winning. People aren't doing enough of the things they can do to help. They just don't think it matters what they have to say. And I think with so many people in the world most of us feel powerless. We can't let them win by following every social norm. In your life, think about where you shop. Think about where you spend your money and what kind of organizations you support. Figure out where your taxes go and figure out what legislation passes in your local government. Find the corruption all around you, it permeates the system.

Over 66,000 people have tuned into the livestreams at this point. Things seemed to have calmed down by now. The oppressive presence of the NYPD has diminished the numbers to only those who are determined to stand firm and risk arrest later on this evening. Separate marches continue around the city and continue to converge on Zuccotti Park. 

7:30PM 
Occupy Wall Street Continues. Surrounded by the NYPD at this point. No one who is still there has any intention of leaving until they are forced. And as soon as it's dark and numbers are at their smallest that is when they will strike and arrest more Occupiers. It is a formula that has been repeated since the night they evicted the occupation from Zuccotti Park

8:43PM 
Livestreamers have predicted that police are getting ready to announce the park is closed despite it being a public park open 24 hours and will forcibly remove the Occupiers from the park. It is a formula that they have seen many time before. 

8:55Pm 
The police have moved into position 2 spotlights the likes of which haven't been seen since the raid of Zuccotti Park.  

A fifth set of spotlights is being erected. It appears they may just keep the Occupiers kettled inside the park and try and arrest them all. It will be a nearly impossible feat since there are still hundreds of protesters inside. The experienced Occupy journalists assume the police will go for the drum circle that has not stopped all day long at OWS. Brookdale Security Guards surround the fences which are still zip tied together. The NYPD may make arrests while causing mass hysteria and threatening arrests for all those who remain. Occupiers agree that there is a way this could be resolved peacefully by the NYPD but that is unlikely to happen. The current scenario will result in a stand off. But how things will progress is still a mystery at this point. 

10:02PM 
A large number of police have filed into the park. 

The police presence alone has cleared a large portion of the park. 

But many remain just outside the fence. And plenty intend to stay until removed by force. This is a 24 hour park that should not be closed. It's an arbitrary rule enforced for the convenience of the corporate owners of the park. 

The police have effectively removed many of the remaining protesters without force. Could the NYPD be learning?


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"How can we stay still and silent?" Happy Birthday Occupy Wall Street

1:24PM
I keep reading articles about how the protesters have kicked off their 1 year anniversary of Occupy Wall Street with multiple arrests. I have watched the youtube videos from the livestreams of these events and they were without provocation. The NYPD are singling out known leaders of the movement and pulling them out of the crowd and arresting them without explanation. Not only that but even with a court order to leave Zuccotti Park open, the NYPD have it heavily guarded and barricaded. 

An entire year of revolution and sometimes it feels a lot like less people care by the day. It is as if the worse and more obvious the atrocities get the more people want to disengage and pretend nothing at all is wrong. My plan to FINALLY get to NYC and actively participate was squashed once again by responsibility. I feel like I must represent a strong group of people too far away and too poor to get to a movement large enough to make a difference. No one is starting a movement in the Republican district of Toms River New Jersey, but one can continue to dream. How must it feel to the people who have been fighting these battles for 10 or 20 years. How can you keep trudging along when even people who should want to help, who you know agree with you, are too afraid of the repercussions to speak out. 

So many people tell me all the time to watch what I say, or only imply I should watch what I say, because they are even too afraid to say that. That is how I know wholeheartedly that there is a problem. The most average people fear that they themselves will be singled out by the police. The Occupy leaders, if there are such a thing, just taught the crowd how to make a peoples wall, being specific about how to protect your thumbs from being broken, which a cheery lovely blond girl saying, "Don't be afraid." Followed by the cutest protester I have ever seen. A little kid, younger than my son (6), lead the crowd in an "All Day All Week Occupy Wall Street". It is the most enthusiastic chant I have seen today. If we succeed, we will succeed for the children. 

3:34PM
Repeat after me:

Corporations can't have me and they can't have my money.

I am the media.

I have personally stopped using corporations except when necessary due to my financial situation, or lack of a local store to shop for that good. But I never pay full price for anything ever. I recommend you stop giving your money to corporations, period. It makes you feel better immediately. One person keeping their money from big banks and corporations doesn't make a big difference because we have so much less than the men of power with wealth. But if every person on our level took their money from Too Big Too Fail banks and stopped spending our hard earned money at corporations there would be a huge impact. This system only continues because we continue to participate. It is difficult to change. But nothing else can stop the path we're on aside from a violent rebellion. I believe the path to peace must start with peace.

It is never too late to change. But it becomes harder by the day. 

7:15PM 
Timcast just came back online. He's participating in a march from 1 Police Plaza. It is so hard to find out what is really going on when you are not at the protests. I feel that they always seem anti climactic without the resources of main stream media and their technology behind the coverage. Imagine if we had chopper images of all of the protests going on around the country. We need pirate media. 

7:32PM
Hundreds are filing into Zuccotti Park. The livestreams keep cutting out. Police are forcing people off of public sidewalks. Specifically the people with cameras. And the people in the park are barricaded in. No one is allowed in the park with bags or chairs. The park is supposed to be completely open to the public. Police deliberately inconvenience the locals and blame the disruptions on the Occupiers. 

Watch Timcast Live @ http://www.ustream.tv/timcast

Watch Luke Live @ http://www.ustream.tv/wearechange 

There is a stand off between an older woman and the NYPD. She claims, "she will not be moved."

The Keep It Moving control method the police are using remind me of being at the mall as a teenager. No standing still allowed. Only shopping. No socializing. Only shopping. 

"The only way to win is to be open and transparent. Communication and open dialog are the most important tools Occupy Wall Street has. In my opinion. " - Luke, We Are Change

A large number of people were not allowed in the park. Despite that there are still a sea of people in Zuccotti Park.

When it's dark at night and there aren't as many cameras that is when the police strike. They are aware of the cameras.

The protesters who all said they were going to bed early for the mornings exciting attempt to disrupt Wall Street were all awake well into the night. The march continued on well past 12am as the enthusiasm in the Occupiers remained empowered by the community of the people.


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Dear Conservative

I have been trying to formulate a way to explain why I can relate to the Democratic platform in theory but not the reality and why I have absolutely no friends who identify as Republican enough to vote for Romney. It probably also has to do with the fact that there are very few well to do people in my age category right now. But there is this imaginary past in the conservative mind where at some point in our history things were better. Which is in fact untrue. There has never been yet an age of utopia. Where everyone was healthy fed and happy.
   

It wasn't utopia. It was the age of consumption. Marketing, advertising, and living on credit have dominated our society since the early 19th century. But in the last 20 years we have reached the pinnacle of our greed. We lived like gluttons of resources under Clinton, all the while thinking it was ok because we had a "surplus" so we didn't need to take personal responsibility for our actions as long as the budget is balanced. As if the budget somehow accurately reflects the good of the common man. During the Bush administration it was drilled into us that spending our money will save the economy. The more we consume the better the GDP. But the reality is that Americans need to be told that the age of fossil fuel gluttony has to end or it may be too late to fix the worlds environment.

Neither Romney or Obama is suggesting an age of conservation because Americans are spoiled brats, and they think we need to be pandered to. So they lie to save themselves and their rich oil and banking friends instead of save us. We can not stay on this path forever. I can understand why people think Obama isn't taking big enough strides towards renewable energy. I can understand that he's a war president who gas presided over the deaths of thousands. BUT How any fool could support Mitt Romney when his platform might as well actually say, "fuck you if you don't make over 1 million dollars a year." It's so far beyond my comprehension that out of 380 facebook friends I don't even have anyone who would Consider Willard "Mitt RMoney" Romney as a leader of "the free world".

As long as money fuels corruption and we all talk about politics in double speak and the language of media manipulation, we will make no progress. These corporations have existed in some form or another for over 100 years. Obviously they didn't and don't have enough regulation. Not to mention there Absolutely should have been a tax on electronic trades. Since they take literally no effort and produce invisible money. Our president and representatives can not possibly consider the good or the will of the American people as long as they have to talk to 100 lobbyists everyday with their hands out, full of cash and agendas from the ultra wealthy. Wall street is the reason we have no jobs. 1000 people in this world have more wealth than 2.4 BILLION people.
 

The money that is hidden in untaxed offshore bank accounts could be used to fix the mess the world and the US is in. Instead it is being used to pad the pockets of the already ultra wealthy. We live in a culture of greed and selfishness. How else could we have an entire party whose platform is that their success is entirely their own and no credit should be given to the society and community that held them up. It doesn't work like that.

My mom has had a small business for 23 and you bet your ass she has brass and works harder than any paper pusher I have ever met. But let me tell you. If you think there is one bit of similarity between some hard working small business owner taking care of her community and a Wall Street business banker creating fake money out of air you are so  sorely mistaken. You will never be one of the people who has power in this world, if you were one you would already know it.

The upper middle class is the only other class other than the 1 percent still getting raises and creating jobs. Because those of us below that point have absolutely no resources and yes I mean money (because money controls the world) left to fight back. Everyone still hanging out on their boat this summer and taking family vacations to the Bahamas don't give a damn about the poor because... "i got mine." If change happens it will be because the privileged in America wake up, they have the resources to exact change. We all can make a difference just by talking honestly and openly with our family and friends and sending letters and taking stances on things that matter to us.

Federal minimum wage is $15,000 a year. It's not a wage any one person can actually live on and feel safe. And if you are trying to support a family get ready for stress related health problems. Except at the bottom you get no paid time off, and at the bottom you don't go to the doctor because you don't have health insurance or the money to pay to go, especially not on top of the days missed pay! I hope you remember every time a line cook makes you an expensive meal... They don't get sick days.

Stop calling greedy sleazy billionaire families who have controlled the world for a century "risk takers". Its a euphemism created by the corporate owned media to make people think there is Anything risky about being rich. Try being poor, now that's risky. “What is riskier than living poor in America? Seriously! What in the world is riskier than being a poor person in America? I live in a neighborhood where people are shot on my street corner. I live in a neighborhood where people have to figure out how to get their kid into school because maybe it will be a good school and maybe it won’t. I am sick of the idea that being wealthy is risky. No. There is a huge safety net that whenever you fail will catch you and catch you and catch you. Being poor is what is risky. We have to create a safety net for poor people. And when we won’t, because they happen to look different from us, it is the pervasive ugliness." - Melissa Harris-Perry

My solution is raise taxes on anyone making more than a million dollars a year, no one needs that much money. Personally I'd go with anything over $200k because that's 5 times as much as my whole family can live on and have every single luxury we want and need. We need to make clear rules for financial transactions and tax electronic transactions. Get Wall Street out of the FED's pocket and create a central bank that is at the hands of its people, like they did in Iceland. We need politicians to start talking honestly with the American people so we can use our brightest minds to find solutions to our problems that don't involve destroying the planet we need to live. College is no longer teaching our future generations to think, even education has been corrupted by the need to make profit. Right now Wall Street has its fingers in everything, our schools, our military, our central bank, our government, and let's not forget the most important, our media. It needs to stop.  And the only thing that can stop it is us.

I reiterate. No matter how rich you might think you are, you aren't one of the people who runs the world. There is a huge gap between the poor and the upper middle class in this country. It would take me and my husband 20 years to make 1 million dollars and at the end we would have nothing left because we spent it all on living. 20 years of my life is not worth a single day of Mitt Romney's or any other corporate CEO. They do not contribute more to the worlds future than any creative mind who works hard every day. He hasn't done any one person any good except for himself and his wealthy billionaire friends. That gap between the upper middle class and the poor is an intentional tool used to divide us. I am your neighbor. They are your rulers. 

Someone as smart and dedicated as you are to education, your future, and the future of those around, should be able to support yourself. Student loans and mortgages right now are a form of debt slavery. We all have so much debt we have to keep working. As long as we're working to pay back our debts most of us don't have time to really investigate the nature of the world and our political state. We are intentionally kept busy with work, a million totally cool technologies, stresses, responsibilities, and reality TV. All designed so we don't start noticing how hard everyone around us has it. If we do speak up about our lack of vacation days, sick days, or health benefits we are told by our own friends and loved ones, "just be thankful you have a job." Is a thankless job hocking retail really something to be thankful for? How can we expect to be happy doing what we know is wrong, and contributing to a society we don't believe in?

Ask your cousins, sister-in-laws, someone in your family has been laid off, or lost their retirement in the recession. Ask them how they feel about the state of economic fairness in the United States. It was the middle class that has lost all their savings and used all of our tax money to bail out the banks. And we still struggle daily while Wall Street reports record profits. The GDP has never been higher, pay attention, that means it obviously does not reflect the economic good of every man. There is almost no safety net left. People you know are hurting, but it's unpleasant to talk about so instead we all discuss the weather, but ya know, not in relation to climate change. Just that we hate the rain and LOVE the extra summer days.

Do you give a damn about the world our children will live in? That the water's polluted, and so is the air. The violent weather is getting stronger. I worry more about the nature of the environment when my son is older than how many dollars he will have. He won't be happy with a million dollars and no health to enjoy it. If we don't protect our children from the toxins that pervade our very existence there will be little hope in the future when everyone is drugged by big pharma for their "genetic" disorders. Many of the health problems you are all experiencing are caused by the chemicals in our food, water, and air. The lack of oversight and science involved in protecting our food and water supply is frightening. All of the people you think are supposed to protect you the FDA, EPA, OSHA, the Supreme Court, etc, are all former employees and profiteers of big business. Oil, pharma, banks, all that money is corroding what we had left to protect us. 

  Do you question why life is not fair?

This is suppose to be the land of the free. Except freedom has not yet been for everyone. There can be no freedom to life, liberty, and happiness while lack of money can deny a person the most basic rights to health, home, and safety. There is no social mobility left in this country. You will make what your father made. I could but I'd rather know my son than work 70 hours a week. Does fairness equate to freedom? There is no grand period of utopia to go back to. There was no time when there wasn't working poor at the bottom supporting everyone else at the top. 

We need to get out of our completely greedy gas guzzling comfort zone. There is a global revolution right now. The wealthy in this country will eventually have no where left to hide. We need to join the rest of the working class of the world. The slaves and the sweatshop workers may be in a different part of the world but they are our brothers and sisters. We have more in common with the working class and working poor of other countries than we will ever have with those who lives the lives of the ultra wealthy. Americans have been spoiled and foolish and too blinded by the smoke and mirrors of our own politics to take action. But I haven't given up yet. 

Quote from an actual Mitt Romney voter (they DO exist, I assure you), 

"Let me just say this world saver, no one is fetting in your way of saving it. So whats your plan earth mother?"

Keep talking until someone listens. 

We can do this together.


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We've Got To Start Somewhere

Every time I am sitting on my couch or in bed or arguing a particularly awesome FB thread I have a lot to say. I think often about sitting at the computer or opening my journal to let brilliant words of wisdom flow forth from me with little effort. I am out of practice. My hand writing is bad and my mind works much faster than my hand moves the pen. I haven't typed lengthy papers or text since my college days, before I had my son, and he is 6 years old.

The time flew by, my fingers don't seem to work quit as smoothly as they once did when all I did was spend countless hours "talking" (typing in chat boxes) with friends, blogging in LiveJournal, and doing homework assignments I deemed lame. Now I know the truth, most of the time they were lame. I was disinterested because I was being forced to regurgitate misrepresented facts. I always really enjoyed teachers who encouraged me to think, those were also usually the teachers who gave me the best grades. I never was much for doing the assigned work. I'd write and write for hours in my journal, during class, at home, even hanging out at the mall on Friday nights. But ask me to write a 1 page paper due in a week and for some reason that was agonizing torture, probably due to the boring subject matter. Still I wish I had tried harder anyway.

I don't know why I ever gave up writing. I say it is because I had my son and settled down. As if that left me with nothing to say. It wasn't my son or my husband silencing me. It was the deafening silence that is motherhood. A time when you are suddenly conscious that what you put out into the world could someday negatively effect your perfect little person. However hiding things from our children is perhaps the most negative effect of the modern American culture on future generations. Motherhood in America in a lot of ways, and I never noticed this before I became one, means hiding your past life, your "worst" self, from the world so as to uphold the sanctity that is motherhood. I have a news flash, for you. Every single human being has a mother. Everyone is born (for now, before The Matrix pods) and no man or woman is without flaws, including everyone's mother. Every single person, and this is what makes us most similar, makes mistakes, big ones, small ones, they all feel the same to the person who is guilty from them. I think that must have been why I stopped writing. I felt over exposed. I didn't want the world to judge me or my family by what I have put down in words.

Now my son will be 6 years old in a week. I have come a long way in my ideas about being a mother and parenting since before I had him. I am as honest with him as I can be. I let his questions dictate what he's ready to talk about. I hope someday to be a new generation of American parent who doesn't perpetuate age discrimination. Who talks to their kids openly when they have questions and listens and tries to help when someday they come home with their own mistakes, those mistakes that everyone makes.

I'd like to dedicate this blog post to an anonymous friend who messaged me this week, out of no where encouraging me to write. I had actually been thinking about her days before, about how I was glad I had something like Facebook to find those who had made a lasting impression of kindness on me. She was one of those people, who you knew for a brief moment in life, and really connected with, but knew you were moving on to different paths in life. Often I hear that the internet age is dividing people. That somehow being able to communicate constantly gets in the way of communication at all. I happen to believe that the technology to communicate quickly and efficiently with people all over the world and the ability to keep track of friends who have moved away but meant a lot to you at some point in life can only be good. We are more connected than ever and we need to find the similarities to find peace instead of using this new communication to perpetuate anger.

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Let's Talk About Language

I do not diminish the power of words. Words are what make us intelligent. Giving names to, organizing, and trying to explain things in life. It is a valiant effort of the human race to attempt to describe life in mere words. Let's start out with the fact that all words to some extent are subjective because they can change with context and by person, by dialect or by accent. I love words. I use them all the time. I try not to overuse them and abuse them. But sometimes things happen. 

I happen to have what some might call a terrible mouth. But to that I say, That's fucked up. Words have lost some of their emotional meaning when we always communicate via text. It is a frequent occurrence that thoughts are misinterpreted when we communicate through technology. But there is a bigger point being missed. Miscommunication is not something that was invented with the internet. There is a barrier between each and every one of us. We are all trying to make it so that other humans know what we feel and what we are trying to say. 

I tend to get to the point in a lengthy manner most times. I have been called "passionate" "intense" and been told to "lighten up" amongst the nicer end of things. I've been called aggressive, angry, loud, and many other less nice things. I use all the words I know. None of them are "bad". Just because a word's meaning is bad, or that word describes a bad act does not make that word in itself bad. We demonize Fuck, and all slang as a form of making sure people are aware of class distinction and gender bias. We ingrain children with the idea that "we don't say those things in front of Grandma" yet grandpa says whatever grandpa wants, especially when women aren't within earshot. And just for reference I've heard both of my Grandma's say Fuck, and apologize for it. As if speaking passionately, especially in front of me, warrants an apology.

I was inspired to write this because of this story about a woman who was not allowed to board a plane wearing a t-shirt that brandished the word Fuck. The shirt had a very political feminist message. "If I wanted the government in my womb, I'd FUCK (it was embolden with color) a senator." I'd be interested to know how many people and of what shapes, sizes, colors, and religions have been asked not to board planes based on their "offensive" attire. I would like to know why we find the word Fuck so offensive. Her message in itself was not a threat. So why would other passengers safety come into consideration in her attire.

Words have power, we use words to express how we feel or what is happening as we perceive it. But words only have as much power as we give them. What is the power behind the list of words we're not allowed to say on T.V. or radio? Is it the power to control us? The power to make us adhere to an arbitrary set of societal rules of politeness, that change arbitrarily. 

As a parent I had to make a personal compromise. Just because I am a mother, does not mean that I am everyone's mother. As a matter of fact, your very own mother is a full person, who had a personality before the blanket statement of mother was wanded over her.  I still use a lot of bad language but my intent and direction isn't what most people would think. I have no rules in my house about bad words. No words are bad, all words exist and thus warrant analysis and discussion and sometimes usage. My son is 5, he has no restrictions on what words he is allowed to use at home. He does not believe that "stupid is a bad word" because it's not. It's a not nice word. It's a word that when used in a certain context can cause emotional harm to another person. But sometimes when the next book in your favorite series is delayed, or something you just bought breaks for no apparent reason that warrants the usage of "that's fucking stupid." You are mad. You are upset. You want to express how you feel about that and it's appropriate. 

In my house instead of "bad words" we have a rule that you do not use language to hurt others, much like you do not use your fists to hurt others. As surprising as it might sound with as much "bad language" as my son hears, and "adult" conversations, he does not use bad words to get a reaction, because there is none. Therefore he rarely chooses to use bad language to express himself. Maybe if he is disappointed because something is broken he might be heard saying, shit or fuck. But it's rare because I usually just smile and say, "I'm sorry that really sucks but things are not what's important in life. "

Many adults underestimate children's ability to understand concepts and not just blunt commands like a dog. I see many children being treated like and behaving like animals and that is not the child's fault. Respect your children, talk to them like they are real people, and they will learn to respect others. Children are not inferior to you, they have the capacity for the most wisdom because they have not been scorned yet by tragedy and lead to bias. You are their primary example of how to treat other kids, and adults. Teach them that whether or not someone is an adult, if they treat you with kindness and respect they deserve yours.

I understand that many men have been assassinated, or silenced through slander because of the powerful language they used. The language that said, "These things are wrong and they must change!" That is the most powerful language, the language of communication and knowledge. The reason powerful men want to control the news and the religions is because they understand the power of knowledge, and words. People can only unify in a way that effects change when we communicate together, and communication really comes down to words. As Fredrick Douglass understood, "Once you learn to read. You will forever be free."

Question why you think some words are bad and other words are good. Words have no meaning without context and less meaning without enunciation. Sometimes a string of perfectly good words can be used to make someone else feel bad. For example, "You have terrible skin. You would be prettier if you wore make-up." Did you see any BAD words in there? But the meanness remains, the sentiment is clearly to hurt another person. Communication has less to do with what words you use and more to do with how you use them. Do not be afraid to use powerful language.

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Home Sweet Home

So. Could anything be more disheartening than living in Ocean County New Jersey? Writing and other forms of art have been neglected. Life has been busy as of late.

Through all of my thoughts on life, in the months when I started writing again, as I was persistently harassing my friends and family and some acquaintances, especially via the internet. I felt a lot like no one cared. There was a day when I used to spend hours every day on the internet writing about the life I wasn't leading (who remembers livejournal?). There is a level of self centered that blinds us to what we want to do in our heart.

Since I've taken my hiatus from expelling my views and art on the global world. Well that has only become magnified. Not only have people shut out what's really going on they are watching even more TV news in the hopes of becoming more informed.

I don't think that is what this post is supposed to be about. It's an apology to myself for giving up on wanting to spend more time more often spilling these words that relentlessly fill my mind onto some readable format. I feel like if not now, maybe some day that will have a purpose. But as I always preach, life just sort of happens sometimes. I was spending much time reading and writing and being inspired at the end of last year into this year. I felt very attached to the issues that are finally being talked about by someone in this country, even if it's not those in charge. I felt justified speaking up for my friends and family and neighbors because I felt lucky that my family wasn't one of those suffering.

Still no one in my household suffers, that is over dramatic to say the least. But my husband was laid off from his job. He was worried about how I would react, if you don't know me at all, I am a very emotional person. Well for some reason that day I knew it was going to happen. For some reason there was no surprise or panic in my reaction. And I thought to myself, good thing someone is still fighting for the extension of unemployment benefits, just in case.

I thought of the few things we could cut back on immediately because we have no extra money and unemployment would be putting us on a tighter budget. But I do notice how people ask me with deep concern, how we are, or if he has gotten a new job. I was in fact proud of him being fired for making the most money out of all his co workers based on merit raises. There aren't many places you could go with more hypocrisy than the voluntary elected board of trustees at a retirement community. It actually fits quite nicely into our story.

Through the years I have learned that my husband and I would have made no advances or ever been motivated if some seemingly shitty (at the time) things hadn't happened to us. Ironically I feel even more lucky now than I did before he was unemployed. My career is advancing at a much faster pace because now I can focus on that more hours a week and know that my son is with his dad, that he is healthy and happy and has the best person he could possibly have looking out for him.

Focusing more on work has taken away from my political activism. Posting relentlessly on FB, articles that I read and information I find, in between all the normal, seemingly mundane but amazing, things that I do in my life every day. My husband and I get to spend more time with each other and more time together with our son. The only downside has been that my politics has taken a back burner. I can not write unless I am alone. And I can not travel on our newly tightened budget. When I feel particularly jaded and angry I just look to those few people out there that I know love me and what me to keep on talking because for some reason they can't. So I will continue talking about and acting as if things will change.

Some days I go to work and it is so hard for me to listen to people's stories. I have empathy for every single one. It's so draining to hear of the hardships in every families relationship and wonder what happened to make society fracture this way. A lot has happened in human history. Every single thing effects us. But the way we can give it meaning is to remember what has happened and learn from it. Without that we are just like the rest of the animals we hold ourselves up above, relying on instincts instead of logic. There are so many things that need work it is hard to decide which cause is worth your effort. So I say, if we each have a cause, if we each have a passion, there could be major changes, the world we want is possible, but only if we stop pretending everything will be OK if I just keep shopping. 

P.S.- If you didn't notice, I stopped writing symbolic letters to the President. I've stopped trying to reach the one man who can't bring about drastic change and started trying to educate all those who can.

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